Gurus, Gurus and Gurus _ 3

I have the personal experience of knowing spiritually evolved persons whose Gurus have been accused/convicted of rape/murder. How come? The explanation could be that these people have absorbed only the good things from those Gurus. Or these people knew the Gurus at a time when they were good. I do not know.

I will give the example of two Gurus.

1. A SriVidya Guru who has been practicing SriVidya for more than 50 years. She is a housewife with husband and children. She has attained Siddhi of many mantras. She has given Mantra Upadesa to countless number of people. She has not made any money out of this. She does not seek fame or wealth. When you sit n front of her you feel her Tejas.

2. A learned Tantric gives Mantra Upadesa to people who consult him for their problems.He listens to the problem of a person, finds out which Mantra and Yagna will alleviate their problem. He initiates the person into the Mantra and also conducts the Yagna with the active participation of the person concerned. Only good Mantras.The Yagnas are all big ones and conducted adhering meticulously to the procedures laid down in the Tantric texts. The yagnas are a delight to watch. But the solution is very expensive. He also seeks fame. He has Tejas.

Now tell me are these two not Gurus? No violation of any laid down norms. People are benefited. The first person gives only Mantra initiation and then it is upto you. The second one leads you further. If you can afford the second Guru you go to him.

My experience of seeking out Holy people of all kinds allover India  has been very good. I have met mostly unknown Gurus who are approachable. I firmly believe that the tradition of the Gurus is flourishing in India.

Jai MAA !!!

Fears

"With enjoyment, comes fear of disease


With social position, fear of disfavor


With riches, fear of hostile people (Kings)


With honor, fear of humiliation


With power, fear of enemies


With beauty, fear of old age


With scholarship, fear of challenges


With virtue, fear of traducers


With identification with the body, fear of death


Everything in this world is done with fear


Renunciation alone makes one fearless."


-- Bhartrihari

Self-Realisation

I have a question, which has been bugging me for a long time. I give up all desires. Desire for fame, wealth etc. I am not a realised soul. The only thing left is total surrender to MAA. I do not want anything. Now I wonder at times what am I living for? Since I do not follow Vedanta or Advaita I do not seek self-realisation.

I am at peace. But you should realise that peace can be very boring. Should I take Vanaprastha and retire to a secluded place. Why not take jalasamadhi at Rudraprayag and end it all?

Someone may suggest service to humanity. There is politics and ego clashes in service/religious organizations and ashrams. Even postings on the internet leads to ego clashes. I do not want to knowingly or unknowingly hurt anyone's ego. That is why I have cut off all contacts with humans except my family.

My reading of the books on Hinduism made me understand that I should give up all desires. The ultimate object is to give up even the desire for God-realisation. O.K. Then what? Take Sannyasa and become a wandering monk or wander into the beautiful Himalayas where MAA lives? Why a wandering monk? Because even in Ashrams of Sannyasins there are ego clashes.

When you progress in your God-realisation or spirituality the desires will leave you. Bht by giving up desires you do not become spiritual. It could be Vairagya or Virakthi. Vairagya does not give you Jnana automatically.

What do you think?

Jai MAA KAALI !!!